Pray for Ellie

Dear friends,

Today morning I received this comment from Dana. I know Dana and Rani for quite sometime now and was heart broken to see his message. Below is the message :

"Hello Manju, I still think about you quite often and, recently, even more so. It seems our trajectories have been so similar in the past, so much so that I was fearing that our recent IVF pregnancy might tumble into the same pitfalls as yours. Sadly, a few days ago, it did. Our little girl was born at 24 weeks, just barely into viability, and she's struggling in the NICU.

I remember you once told me I should start a blog and I didn't see how I could find enough thoughts or words for it. Now, they are spilling out like a fountain, so I started one after all.

Maybe its not the kind of thing you should be reading right now, but if you would like, it is here: 

http://letterstoelliesmith.blogspot.com/ "

Please pray for Little Ellie and her parents ! Three months have gone since I lost my little ones. Dana's message has triggered lots of memories that I try to keep suppressed within me.  Whoever reads this post please show your support to them with your kind message. Every kind word will bring a lot of solace to the parents. I really wish Ellie beats all the odds and turn into a healthy little young one.

About us : We are doing fine. We are in India on a break. The warm sun and the love we receive from our loved ones has eased our pain a lot. I smile as usual, enjoy all the worldly pleasures (I didn't think I will be able to do so three months ago), I am quite happy. Time is a great healer and fortunately our brain forgets all the pain quick enough leaving only the scars. Scars don't pain as much as a raw wound. What will happen if the wound remains raw always - no one will survive adversity ! The end result of all we went through is : myself and my husband enjoy a better relationship, I am able to take in happiness even better, I am very, very thankful for all my blessings. If I have to mention the negatives too, we don't have our children, don't have a job, don't have a home - I had everything three months ago ! Life is a mystery and is too beautiful with its uncertaininty, only we must learn to enjoy it :)

Our journey to have a little one continues. I am not going to stop following my dream but haven't decided yet which way to a baby. I believe that the fear of losing is much worser than the loss itself. If I worry about suffering and loss I can never pursue my dream. If I stop following my dream, my life will cease to have a meaning. We are planning for the future and I am happy that we still have a chance to do so !

Love,

Manju