Embryo Transfer

ET was scheduled to 4 PM today. It’s very hard to explain how I feel. My mom left to my native place yesterday. I feel heartbroken without her presence. DH had a hard time controlling my crying spells. I am in the grip of all sorts of blues now. I am excited and at the same time very scared. The result of all the toil will be out in two weeks. Why can’t someone make me to go into coma for two weeks? When I see my DH I feel very sorry for him. I am solely responsible for all the troubles he endures now. All this uncertainty, tension,travelling…….everything is because of me. I am very lucky to have him in my life. If he is not this understanding what would have happened to me? I feel I have a lot to vent. I am depressed probably because of progesterone. I wish I could go back to work so that I can distract myself. I am also dreading thinking about today and tomorrow. I do not believe in rest after ET but my DH will be very upset if I roam around. I have to lie down or sit all the time without doing anything and that is a big torture!

Inspite of all these thoughts, I feel very happy when I see my blasties. I hope they will wake up from their cold sleep happily without loosing any cells, snuggle within me tight and speak with my not so great endometrium for establishing connections. Let the cross-talk between my blasties and endometrium be successful! If someone reads this post send me some positive vibes. I will be very grateful. I am uploading my blastocyst pictures. Don’t they look beautiful? One day we saw a very cute little girl and I said to my DH ‘our child will look as beautiful as this littleone’. He said, ofcourse yes! Our blastocyts look very beautiful so definitely our child will look beautiful too :) These kind of small, sweet nothing talks, keeps us going!