"This too will pass"

It's a negative again! At this moment so many different thoughts are running in my mind but "This too will pass". Thank you for each and every wonderful person who prayed for me and did their best to keep me happy. Only all your kindness, keeps me going. 

It is hard, I did cry but I did feel peaceful within me after knowing for sure this is what it is. I haven't told my mom yet. I am gathering courage so that I can tell her without crying. Obviously she will tolerate the negative but not my sadness. I have let so many people down. I might have also shattered many of your dreams.  I have a friend who is also going through this. She told me 'Manju, if you get success it will give me lots of confidence to carry on'. Sorry! I know many people like her would have looked at my posts in search of some inspiration. Please remember-our baby making machinery is not so effective! Even couples without any problems need few months to a year to conceive. Do not take me as an example. I can show so many people who conceive with IVF/FET. There are so many people who conceive with a thin endometrium. Might be, I am just an exception who needs to fight a bit hard. I am not going to give up and every failure makes me stronger! I have 5 more frozen embryos. So hopefully when we are ready we will start the process all over again. My DH is calm and composed as always. I sometimes wish he breaks down as I do  - so that he will not accumulate the stress inside.

I still think my blasties looked so good and competent.  I failed to provide them the best : ( I just wish I accumulate enough patience, perseverance and persistence to go on with this process. As Winston Churcill said :

                  Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.  

Take care everyone! How much I wished I could put a picture of postive HPT in this post!!!! : (